“She’s massive,” a man says behind me at the British Museum.
Thank you, Britain.
He is talking to his kid. Talking about me. Setting a good example to his kid.
I am not particularly pissed off. I have high self-esteem. He doesn’t know who I am. He doesn’t know anything about me.
My husband thinks I should go on The Biggest Loser.
But I would lose more weight than anyone on a reality show–I’d be the Katniss (love the name!) of the literal Hunger Games–because I’m very competitive. (You’re looking at the winner of the Lowden Prize for Latin.) And then the weight would come right back on. Yes, that’s how it works. Talk to anyone on a diet. You lose, you gain.
I’ve got the dieter’s wardrobe: the size 8 schoolmarm/wedding dress (it doubled for both things) up to…you don’t want to know!
There are so many fat Americans in the Midwest that you don’t hear a lot of chat about fat. Walk through the mall and you’ll see a lot of fat people. Walk through a museum and the fat people vanish. Do they feel good enough to eat a pretzel but not good enough to look at Rubens?
According to the CDC, more than one-third of Americans are obese, and 28.4% of people are obese in my state. Certainly no one in the U.S. is rude to me because of my weight. People are very polite in the Midwest. It’s beautiful, it’s rugged, it’s windy, it’s cold, and we all give one another a lot of space. There are eating disorder groups, but, alas, my doctor thinks it would be a bad idea to attend one, because most of the members have borderline personality: “They’re very self-centered and annoying.” I guess it’s a compliment that I don’t have borderline personality. I do remember when I taught composition the thin, sad students who suffered from anorexia and even struggled to eat yogurt for lunch. They wrote their term papers on anorexia. As for obesity, the fat girls ignored it. Not one of them ever wrote about it. Is anorexia more acceptable than obesity?
And, as my doctor tells me, I am in better shape than most thin people. I used to be a runner. Well, I stopped 10 years ago, but I still bicycle. My blood pressure is so low I’m almost not there. My pulse is low. My cholesterol is low. I do have hypothyroidism, but in a general sense, I’m very healthy. Being fat does not mean you’re unhealthy. Much depends on diet (yes, I do eat healthy food) and exercise.
Fat can ruin your life, but only if you let it.
It doesn’t necessarily preclude your flirting, having relationships, or being married.
I did sense in London that a few people judged me because of my fat (most were very polite), but then I didn’t see any fat people anywhere. Either there are no fat people, or they’re all too neurotic to go out of the house.
I loved London. A beautiful city, gorgeous museums, and it is possible to take a very cheap trip there. Even with my book-buying and shipping of books, I spent very little. I am stunned at how little I spent (aside from the hotel and flight).
But it was time to come home, because after being up for more than 24 hours on Saturday, I have been sleeping on every piece of furniture in the house. But I will go back! I will see the Tate Modern! And do so much more…